Lyrics for "Back Tracks" CD

 

by Roger Marshall

Squandered love   Hanging 'round the planet    See you tonight   Falling through the night

 

Where it all began   The Amnesiac   Edge of the rim   Vacuum   The Mystic   Break in the clouds

 

Mudflats  As long as   Just a Man   Sinking feeling   Maintain

 

Squandered love

 

When I think about the moments of tenderness

I don’t know how we ended up like this

And when I look at your photo on my mantle shelf

I'm the millionaire who blew all his wealth

And I don’t know why I said what I said

And I don’t know why I did what I did

Or why I squandered your love

 

It’s late and I know you’re sleeping in your iron bed

Who knows where the long road might have led?

And I can picture your body all curled up and still

And I ache for you now through this midnight film

I don’t know how it came to this

And I know it is just some foolishness

And I squandered your love

 

I am tired and I am sorry and I've got no excuse

I should have done more but what’s the use?

And I should have looked to see what lies ahead

But I just drifted along instead

And I don’t know why I said what I said

And I don’t know why I did what I did

And why I squandered your love

 

Hanging ‘round the planet

 

Once went out east to Istanbul

Took a plane out west to Hollywood

Dipped my toes in the waves of the Caribbean seas

I like the way they play calypso, like what grows on the trees

Hanging round the planet

 

Eighteen thousand and a few hundred days

‘taint nothing in the void of the milky way

Ain’t nothing in the scheme of a dinosaur

The very last human being that I saw

Was hanging round the planet

 

Sat out in the sunshine soaking it’s rays

Feeling like a lizard like a dog that's had it’s days

Watching  people saying  hello and good-bye

Looking at the clouds floating up in the sky

As they were hanging round the planet

 

I was reading my Eagle about the shape of things to come

Dan Dare was way ahead  in two thousand and one

Soon I’ll get to see him ‘cos the day itself is looming

Don’t fly me to the moon, I’m just an earthling human

Hanging round the planet

 

It’s like in a hall of mirrors, everything’s looking weird

Don't know where the time went, it just upped and disappeared

One day it was there all on my side

Next day it had gone, I’ve been taken for a ride

Hanging around the planet

 

Drunk a lot of moonshine, walked out in the rain

Seen a lot of people who I’ve never seen again

They might be living charmed lives, living in ruts

Millions of people ain’t doing nothing but

Hanging round the planet

 

See you tonight

 

I’ve been working all day from nine to five

Can't wait to get paid, to save my life

Don't even know if I’m wrong or right

But I'm gonna see you tonight

 

I’ve been wasting my time, driving in a truck

Never had much pay, never had a whole lot of  luck

Can’t even tell if it’s black or white

But I'm gonna see you tonight

 

I just can’t wait

 

These towns that I pass, they never looked so bleak

Hours turn into days, days turn into weeks

My eyes on the road transfixed by the lights

But I'm gonna see you tonight

 

 

  Falling through the night

 

There was something I wanted to say,

but living sort of just got in the way

There was something that was playing on my mind

but somehow we never could make the time

to say or express, what I needed to confess.

But you can't make everything stop

you can't turn back the clock

I don't want to turn out the light

when I'm falling through the night

 

There was something I was having trouble with

something that was hard to forgive.

There was a feeling of being right out of touch

as if you had never said such and such.

All that was revealed when your lips were unsealed

But I can't seem to get a grip,

losing my touch it’s all starting to slip

I don’t want to turn out the light

when I'm falling through the night.

 

There was something I wanted you to know,

but somehow the days just seemed to go.

Something that was important at the time,

but it must have been just a figment of my mind.

It didn't matter anyway, what could I say?

Now you can't retrace your steps,

go back to where we once slept

I don't want to turn out the light

when I'm falling through the night.

 

Where it all began

 

She said she was just a country girl, came from the west and south

where the river rolls by the Cotswolds way down to the river mouth

where the stone walls were all ancient and the sun rakes across the sky

in the fragrance of a shady lane I was kissing her good-bye

 

Her father was a squadron leader, her mother an eccentric soul

they lived like the old aristocrats in a manor house so old

she could play Scarlatti and Vivaldi but I could only do C, F and G

and when I hear that ancient music she comes flooding back to me

 

I saw her working in earthworks where she was digging up the Roman bones

the invaders came two thousand years ago, left their marks upon the stones

in stillness of the moonlight we stumbled from a wayside inn

in the shadows of the stone men could feel the warmth of your skin

  

When the pavements were uncovered and the mosaics revealed themselves

and their beauty and their geometry became a part of ourselves

drinking beer in celebration in the gardens of the sun

and in that very moment I knew I’d only just begun

 

back to where it all began

driving driving driving myself

back to where it all began

driving driving driving myself

I never even sensed the danger

and time must have changed her

if I was standing here beside you,

you’d be a stranger now

 

The Amnesiac

 

I remember it now, it’s all coming back

I'd been living the life of an amnesiac

they asked me lots of questions: do you have a name?

do you have a number? what is your age ?

Do you have money, are you living in debt

are you living alone, are you being kept?

I remember it now, it’s all falling in place

I remember the time they took me away

Maybe that time disappeared somehow, but I remember it now .......

 

as if though a haze.

It must have been something, my mind had erased

how you hypnotised me, filled me with hope

sometimes chastised me, showed me the ropes

When I was branded, when I was cocooned

When I was stranded, when I was marooned

I remember it now, it’s all falling in place

I remember the times I'd fallen from grace

I see it all, as if from the prow, I remember it now .......

 

it’s all falling in place

as if a time had stood still and the years gone to waste

I remember you saying, this will be History

write it down in your diary, when you first touched me.

There's no lie detectors, no remembrance drugs

no hidden cameras, no electronic bugs.

I remember it now, it’s all falling in place

I remember the look that you had on your face

I said it all, but it meant nothing anyhow, I remember it now ........

 

but there's still something not right

there’s a piece of the puzzle that I can't visualise

maybe it’s  a feeling, maybe it’s a wish

deep down I know there's something amiss.

Help me to remember, shine a light in my eyes.

I am not fooling, this is no disguise.

I remember it now, it’s all falling in place

I remember the time I was falling through space

I see it all,  like a lovers vow, I remember it now.

 

Edge of the rim

 

 It’s along way from here to there

 too much to cross

 It’s a long way from then and now

 see the gathering moss

 When I called you

 your voice sounded distant and dim

 from the edge of the edge of the rim

 

  There’s a long beach and a calm sea

 an island off the shore

 a lone cry from lonely gull

 what did people have to come here for?

 I picked up a stone it’s the one that

 you used to skim

 from the edge of the edge of the rim

 

 It’s a long road, it twists and turns

 winds back on itself

 There’s a long shore and a deep sea,

 the deep pacific shelf.

 I know the chances of seeing you are slim

 from the edge of the edge of the rim

 

 It’s a long way to talk to you

 a fading voice on a wire

 a long way to the desert road

 across the rings of fire

 when I saw a photo

 your face looked worn and grim

 from the edge of the edge of the rim

 

 

Vacuum

 

I would love to have you love me

but all you do is push and shove me

I would love to have you want me

but all you do is try and taunt me

Friday night, November twenty third,

I said “hello life” I said “hey there world”

stepped into the music in the dancing room

but there was no sound in that vacuum,

 

I would love to have you hold me

but all you do is hot and cold me

I would love to have you phone me

but I waited getting lonely

scotch on the rocks and looked at the clock

seven thirty seven and I got a mental block

I ought visit someone buy a vindaloo

but I can’t eat inside this vacuum

 

I’d love to be inside your vision

but I was beaten by derision

I would have loved to be your lover

but all I did was seem to suffer

Eleven thirty seven and my mind was on fire

I oughta disappear into the late night mire

somewhere I can be a nom de plume

lose myself in a vacuum

 

I would love to have you need me

but you barely even feed me

I’d be your man of just this moment

but you only just postpone it

midnight passed and I barely knew

whether I should even spare a thought for you

look at the moon through a telescopic zoom

out in space is a just a vacuum

 

The Mystic

 

The flags were flying in the used car yard.

The salesman sat there smoking his cigar

The woman on the asphalt looking at the wreck

He asked her how she felt she said "ah, yeah what the heck"

She said she had a mission and a journey to complete

"it isn't chance but fate that we should meet"

They jumped into the Mazda and her foot hit the floor

before they knew it they had arrived in Rotorua

 

She said "I am a psychic, why must you deny it,

 I am a mystic, why must you resist it?"

 

They checked into a motel, swam in the sulphur pool

He thought she was crazy, she thought he's a fool

She was transcendental, he was like a rock

she was ornamental, he was in a state of shock

She said "I have a feeling of loss and deja vu

you're not be ideal but I guess you'll have to do"

They went to where the mountain used to be

she said she had arrived and they must part company

 

She said "look at the moon and look at the sky

There lies the meaning of life

while you are a-wheeling and dealing in cars

I'll be as one with the heavens and stars."

For one fleeting moment he almost knew what she meant

but he pulled himself together as he started to fragment

he said I must be going it’s time for me to quit

she said "wait on now I think I’m gonna have a fit"

 

She started talking in tongues and he just stood and gaped

She started to glow and then she changed a different shape

She turned into everybody that she had ever been.

He'd seen a lot of movies but this they'd never screen.

He grabbed her by the sleeve and he said "hey what is this?"

she said "let me go it's only metamorphosis"

he watched her disappear and vanish in the dark

he fled to the bosom of his used car yard.

 Break in the clouds

 

When there's a break in the clouds

you can do anything

When there's a break in the clouds

you can spread your wings

When desperation looms

when you're alone in your room

and you wish you’d never left the womb

Look up

For a break in the clouds

 

When there's a break in the clouds

step into the sun

When there's a break in the clouds

smile at everyone

It comes as a blessed relief

a time to turn a new leaf

a time to shake off all grief

Look up

For a break in the clouds

 

When there's a break in the clouds

get out your summer clothes

When there's a break in the clouds

drive down those dusty roads

When you're trapped in a mall

when you're locked inside four walls

when the wild sea calls

Look up

For a break in the clouds

 

Mudflats

 

As the sun set on the mud flats and the mosquitoes began to bite

The daylight folded up and the sun said it’s goodnight

I tried to picture you there before me, but I couldn't get a fix on you

Just the embers on the horizon and the sea of gold and blue

And I’d lost the shape of your face

Forgotten the way you'd embrace

 

And later in the blackness underneath a mass of stars

Thinking about what's happening up on Jupiter and Mars

I tried to hold your face before me but you I could not see

Just a great big empty void stretching to infinity.

And I’d lost the shape of your face

Forgotten the way you'd embrace

 

I’m sleeping on the cold ground in this canvas hideaway

Listening to the rooster bringing in another day

And in the moments between waking and breaking from a dream

I tried to picture you there before me but you could not be seen

And I’d lost the shape of your face

Forgotten the way you'd embrace

 

I was waking through a vision that was all mixed up and blurred

In the early hours of morning before a spoken word

And I tried to see you there before me, your face, your eyes your hair

But my mind was like the mud flats as featureless and bare

And I’d lost the shape of your face

Forgotten the way you'd embrace

 

As long as

 

As long as there’s air to breathe, I’ll be your oxygen

As long as there’s repartee, I’ll be your friend

As long as you're playful, I’ll be joyful

As long as I know

 

As long as there’s mystery, I’ll be your great Unknown

As long as there’s energy, you can light up my home

As long as you’re happy, I’ll smile for you

As long as I know

 

As long as you signal me your intent

As long as you tell me when your love’s all spent

When there ain't nothin' much left but a burnt out shell

When the magic has gone and broken the spell.

 

As long as there’s night and day, you’ll be my moon and sun

As long as there games to play, you’ll be my fun

As long as your with me, I’ll be for you

As long as I know

 

As long as good luck holds out, you’ll be my talisman

As long as we just muck about, I’ll be your span man

As long as hereafter, I’ll stand before you

As long as I know

 

Just a Man

 

There is a kind of creature, walks around on two legs.

The other animals think it’s the dregs.

Muscles in on their patch of ground

taking away everything to be found.

It’s a creature called Man, it’s a human being

not been very long on the Evolution scene

It’s a Man

 

 They come in two shapes and neither has fur.

(One's called him the other's called her.)

They prowl around an urban space

making a mess all over the place.

It’s a creature called Man, it’s a hominoid.

Most of them are really quite paranoid

It’s a Man

 

 So many creatures living on the brink.

Some of them have even become extinct.

Mostly they don't know which way to turn,

watching as their forests burn.

It’s a creature called Man, it’s a naked ape.

Does a very good line in pillage and rape.

It’s a Man.

 

 With a brain that's big, and an ego to match,

some of them even behave worse than rats.

Some live with their heads in the clouds

most of them are just another one in a crowd

It’s a creature call Man, it’s me and you

living in a human zoo.

It’s a man.

Sinking feeling

 

Moonlight dripped in the harbour

waves were lapping at the boats

stars too many to number

I'm only just afloat

I came too close for comfort

too far away to be seen

with a sinking feeling flooding over me

 

Light house lamplight keeps on turning

I guess the keepers must have fled

and the oceans don't ever stop swirling

there's a shipwreck in my head

point me in the right direction

scratch a map at my feet

with a sinking feeling flooding over me

 

Long finger of the headland

pointing out to somewhere north

came a long way from the mad lands

beauty is here (for what it is worth)

Looking down at the ocean

so blue and so deep

with a sinking feeling flooding over me

 

 Pick any street put a pin in the map

there ain't nobody whom my patience wouldn't sap

ain’t nobody with whom I do agree

everybody's gone crazy but me

with a sinking feeling flooding over me

 

Dazzled by sun, had to escape it

curl up some place in the shade

sometimes I think I can’t make it

sometimes I think I’ve got it made

it never ceases to amaze me

it's still as much a mystery

with a sinking feeling flooding over me

 

Maintain

 

I was talking to someone about as lonely as me

way off of his axis, eaten up by deceit

he said: "living is easy, you know it's really not hard

all you've gotta do is maintain a façade

maintain”

 

“You’ve gotta maintain the impression of being impressed

even when you're naked make out you're dressed

life is just about feigning, about playing charades

even two bit parts you've gotta maintain the facade

maintain”

 

“There ain’t no such thing as being a fraud

say fascinating, even when you’re dead bored

imagine yourself the general put yourself in charge

you gotta cry sometime but maintain the facade

maintain”

 

“You can’t believe any message that’s sent

how'd ya know I’m not fooling, that it’s not just pretence

you don't have to trust what it says on my card

all you've gotta do is maintain a facade

maintain"